QUESTIONING YOU, LOVE.....

When dreams vanish in bubbles.........
And reality bares its teeth..........
I grope for bits of hope, and
Shreds of desire come in hand..........
LOVE, will you redeem me?

SILENCE, WHERE ART THOU?

A thousand words…

Clashing and gnawing at each other…

Baring teeth and jaws…

Jeering at those unspoken thoughts,

That mingle into a single emotion!

How despicable is speech sometimes!

Silence, pregnant with unuttered emotions--

A bliss to be experienced!

FEELING SUPERANNUATED

Feeling superannuated……

Yet the untamed mind refuses to idle.

The painful weakness grips every limb

And a mournful cry remains unuttered;

I want a release, a freedom to be myself,

Yet every move seems superfluous, and

At the same time inadequate, unbearable.

This excruciating torture of being hollow,

Of being reduced to empty nothingness,

Gnaws ant my heart and rends the soul.

Deliver me, deliver my mind, I want to be free……..

Let me live, body and soul, and feel life as it is.

ON ILLNESS

The sunny days decide to have a peep into my room,

The golden rays make delightful images on the wall,

And I lay groaning in my bed, deprived of freedom…

I can’t stand at the window to listen to the birds’ call.

I twist and turn and try hard to cast aside the fever,

Which grabs my hands and feet in a strong icy grip,

And burns up my body in a fiery blaze of torture…

My mind can’t work as thoughts seem to fall and slip.

Menacing weird shapes keep haunting my slumber…

And endless nights are threatened with nightmares…

Lying in bed, I find my days dull and nights sombre,

Idleness wraps up the mind and body in countless layers.

May I be delivered from this tormenting existence?

May I be able to bear these days with calm patience?

PARADISE GAINED.......

I chose words carefully, wrote them down,

And read and revised a number of times

Before I sent them your way…..

I trembled happily, sang a careless tune,

Dreamt with open eyes, saw endless visions

Before I got carried away…..

Suddenly a thought crept into my mind

And my heart missed a beat as it said:

“What you sent were merely ideas stray,

Your deep love, you failed to convey.”

I was shocked as I felt I was blind,

My heart can’t be shown in the poem I made.

As I lay in my sorrow, crestfallen and distressed…..

He called me, and my spirits were uplifted!

He said, “My dear, words are hopelessly inadequate,

Listen to the beats of my heart, it is as passionate.”

The words dissolved…..

The visions melted…..

I lost myself

And gained Paradise!!

THE 'CHILD'

We have successfully killed the 'child' in us.
We have throttled the 'child' and even hushed its groans,
And made the children of today mere shadows of the past!
They have never known the innocent pleasures of childhood,
And are enjoying the pursuit of empty dreams and desires.
'Childhood' is a myth now, a long-forgotten story...
How I wish it were re-told and re-lived!

IDLE REVERIES...

The days and nights pass.
We live….
The months and years pass.
We live….
We breathe and we live,
We live and we breathe,
No significance in our existence….
Why we are? What we should be?
All unanswered questions haunt an idle mind.


Am I doing the right thing?
Is this the correct option?-
What’s the point in asking anyway?
Because the habit of living has got into our veins.
The purpose is lost in the complicated pathways
The story of each man is that of passing days…
No variety, no change…!
An unending saga of sameness and complacency.



I wish to break free,
I wish to fly and touch the sky,
I wish to feel the star in the eastern horizon,
With whom I share my feelings….
It had been when I was, it will be when I am not….


Can a heart pound in the same wild manner as mine does?
Can a mind reach out to mine and share my thoughts?
I wonder if I will ever find ….

My lines will remain as ramblings of some mad woman
Lost in the mazes of her own reveries!!

LONELINESS...

The half-formed illusive notions
Flit across the mind’s horizon
As despair and happiness struggle hard
To reign supreme in the heart.
I have discovered the meaning of loneliness-
It whispers into the ears mystical words
With obscure import and strange implication
Until u are overwhelmed with a wondrous charm.
Loneliness torments and generates a pain,
But I have learnt to strive and battle
To transcend it and emerge stronger.
Yet the heart refuses to remain in my hands-
It remains vulnerable to all the vagaries of the mind
And gets swayed and tossed about in the sea of emotions.
And I like a soul lost in my own misty consciousness
Choose to overlook the lessons of solitude
And embrace the aches of the heart…..!
How strange is human nature,
That opts for melancholy even when freedom is at hand!!

THE RE-INCARNATION

The tame mind holds the reins of the wild heart,
Impatient to get submerged in the waves of new desires.
The distant call of the unknown and the strange
Stir the unbridled emotions that overwhelm the soul.
Oscillating between exhilaration and despair
The self undergoes a transformation-
A new ME looks into my eyes,
Stunned and bewildered at its own re-incarnation!!

I CHOOSE TO WAIT!!

The day arrives-
The bright summer sun peeps through the window
And plants a warm kiss on my forehead.
I open my eyes,
And choose to wait…
And wait…!


The evening sets in-
The sky gets overcast with dark clouds
And a faint blue light illuminates the horizon.
I hum an old tune,
And choose to wait…
And wait…?


The night falls-
Big drops of rain come down in amazing haste
And a painful longing overwhelms my soul.
I wipe off a careless tear,
And choose to wait…
And wait!
And wait!

MUSIC IN MY SOUL!!

My soul flutters like a caged bird
Wishing to get free….
A strange madness has possessed it
And it wants to soar high….
High and high beyond the known
Transcending the limits of time and place
To touch the distant, the unknown….

The raindrops patter on the eaves
Dancing and rejoicing for no definite reason
With a strange musical rhythm,
A gust of wind threw open the windows
To whisper softly in my ears,
‘A miracle has taken place, and
Something somewhere has changed....!’

THE RE-AWAKENING!!

A cool breeze lifted my hair
And touched my face,
Caressing it with a spray of soft raindrops.
The wet sari wrapped around my body
Enfolding me in the comfort of familiar warmth...
I wished to throw away the umbrella
And lose myself in the celebration of nature…..
The rains… the long awaited rains….!!
It drenched my body, it freed my soul…
A feeling, strange and sweet, crept into the heart
And I let myself be drowned in the flood of emotions-
To emerge pure and true
In a new world… on a new day…!!

THE MIRACLE WE CALL LIFE!

Life….
The paradox we have to deal with!
For a moment it loses its meaning,
When a meeting or a conversation
Ceases to be important.
Then suddenly the colours rush back
And tinge all the bleak corners of your heart
With the flush of new desires!
And you are left wondering….
Is it possible?
Life….
The strangest boon we are gifted with!

THE MIRACLE WE CALL LIFE!

Life….

The paradox we have to deal with!

For a moment it loses its meaning,

When a meeting or a conversation

Ceases to be important.

Then suddenly the colours rush back

And tinge all the bleak corners of your heart

With the flush of new desires!

And you are left wondering….

Is it possible?

Life….

The strangest boon we are gifted with!

EMBRACE LIFE...

You are never sure of the next step in your life,
But that does not stop you from stumbling.
You are never sure of which hand to grasp in life,
But that never stops you from groping.

Whether you have been right or could have been-
The question looms large; the answer is absent.
But don’t look for the hidden answer, when
The question itself has become irrelevant.

Efface the memories that trouble you.
Embrace the world as it comes to you.

AN UNSUCCESSFUL ATTEMPT

The pen’s lip touched the page of my notebook-
I caressed the black keys of my computer-
A poem was supposed to be written,
Given birth to, made alive….
But alas!
Poetry failed me-
And life became prosaic.

A FAILURE

One fine morning I woke up to find
My dream had lost its wings!
Twisted and misshapen, it could not fly-
Yet I nurture it with all my strength,
Hoping, some day it might soar high-
Beyond the clouds,
To touch the rainbow…..

I WISH I COULD ESCAPE...

Sometimes I wish I could escape to a world,
Unknown and unexplored, with unfamiliar faces-
With neither smiles, nor frowns,
Nor any form of feeling and emotion-
Blank indifferent faces,
Who will neither greet, nor bid goodbye…
There I wish to discover myself,
And lost in anonymity, recover my faded dreams.

BROKEN DREAM

One sleepless night chases another,
Yet I dare to live every piece of my broken dream.

An inconsolable grief overwhelms me,
Delves deep into my heart and devours my soul,
I grope for the bits of my lost emotions-
And the ashes of my burnt desires fill my stretched palms…….

One tormenting day chases another,
Yet I long to sing every tune of my faded song.

PROUD TO BE A WOMAN

Is it Man’s prerogative to love and woo?
It is Woman’s duty to be coy and obliging?
Is it necessary to conform to such roles?

A woman loves more intensely than a man.
A woman feels more powerfully than a man.
A woman believes more profoundly than a man.
A woman cares more deeply than a man.

Yet her words are choked.
Yet her voice is throttled.
Yet her love is strangled.
Yet her soul is tortured.

A woman has the power to create and un-create love.
A woman has the right to define and re-define her self.
Let us make her see her strength, discover her voice;
Let us make her proud…
Proud to be what she is...
A woman.