IDLE REVERIES...

The days and nights pass.
We live….
The months and years pass.
We live….
We breathe and we live,
We live and we breathe,
No significance in our existence….
Why we are? What we should be?
All unanswered questions haunt an idle mind.


Am I doing the right thing?
Is this the correct option?-
What’s the point in asking anyway?
Because the habit of living has got into our veins.
The purpose is lost in the complicated pathways
The story of each man is that of passing days…
No variety, no change…!
An unending saga of sameness and complacency.



I wish to break free,
I wish to fly and touch the sky,
I wish to feel the star in the eastern horizon,
With whom I share my feelings….
It had been when I was, it will be when I am not….


Can a heart pound in the same wild manner as mine does?
Can a mind reach out to mine and share my thoughts?
I wonder if I will ever find ….

My lines will remain as ramblings of some mad woman
Lost in the mazes of her own reveries!!

LONELINESS...

The half-formed illusive notions
Flit across the mind’s horizon
As despair and happiness struggle hard
To reign supreme in the heart.
I have discovered the meaning of loneliness-
It whispers into the ears mystical words
With obscure import and strange implication
Until u are overwhelmed with a wondrous charm.
Loneliness torments and generates a pain,
But I have learnt to strive and battle
To transcend it and emerge stronger.
Yet the heart refuses to remain in my hands-
It remains vulnerable to all the vagaries of the mind
And gets swayed and tossed about in the sea of emotions.
And I like a soul lost in my own misty consciousness
Choose to overlook the lessons of solitude
And embrace the aches of the heart…..!
How strange is human nature,
That opts for melancholy even when freedom is at hand!!

THE RE-INCARNATION

The tame mind holds the reins of the wild heart,
Impatient to get submerged in the waves of new desires.
The distant call of the unknown and the strange
Stir the unbridled emotions that overwhelm the soul.
Oscillating between exhilaration and despair
The self undergoes a transformation-
A new ME looks into my eyes,
Stunned and bewildered at its own re-incarnation!!

I CHOOSE TO WAIT!!

The day arrives-
The bright summer sun peeps through the window
And plants a warm kiss on my forehead.
I open my eyes,
And choose to wait…
And wait…!


The evening sets in-
The sky gets overcast with dark clouds
And a faint blue light illuminates the horizon.
I hum an old tune,
And choose to wait…
And wait…?


The night falls-
Big drops of rain come down in amazing haste
And a painful longing overwhelms my soul.
I wipe off a careless tear,
And choose to wait…
And wait!
And wait!

MUSIC IN MY SOUL!!

My soul flutters like a caged bird
Wishing to get free….
A strange madness has possessed it
And it wants to soar high….
High and high beyond the known
Transcending the limits of time and place
To touch the distant, the unknown….

The raindrops patter on the eaves
Dancing and rejoicing for no definite reason
With a strange musical rhythm,
A gust of wind threw open the windows
To whisper softly in my ears,
‘A miracle has taken place, and
Something somewhere has changed....!’

THE RE-AWAKENING!!

A cool breeze lifted my hair
And touched my face,
Caressing it with a spray of soft raindrops.
The wet sari wrapped around my body
Enfolding me in the comfort of familiar warmth...
I wished to throw away the umbrella
And lose myself in the celebration of nature…..
The rains… the long awaited rains….!!
It drenched my body, it freed my soul…
A feeling, strange and sweet, crept into the heart
And I let myself be drowned in the flood of emotions-
To emerge pure and true
In a new world… on a new day…!!

THE MIRACLE WE CALL LIFE!

Life….
The paradox we have to deal with!
For a moment it loses its meaning,
When a meeting or a conversation
Ceases to be important.
Then suddenly the colours rush back
And tinge all the bleak corners of your heart
With the flush of new desires!
And you are left wondering….
Is it possible?
Life….
The strangest boon we are gifted with!

THE MIRACLE WE CALL LIFE!

Life….

The paradox we have to deal with!

For a moment it loses its meaning,

When a meeting or a conversation

Ceases to be important.

Then suddenly the colours rush back

And tinge all the bleak corners of your heart

With the flush of new desires!

And you are left wondering….

Is it possible?

Life….

The strangest boon we are gifted with!

EMBRACE LIFE...

You are never sure of the next step in your life,
But that does not stop you from stumbling.
You are never sure of which hand to grasp in life,
But that never stops you from groping.

Whether you have been right or could have been-
The question looms large; the answer is absent.
But don’t look for the hidden answer, when
The question itself has become irrelevant.

Efface the memories that trouble you.
Embrace the world as it comes to you.

AN UNSUCCESSFUL ATTEMPT

The pen’s lip touched the page of my notebook-
I caressed the black keys of my computer-
A poem was supposed to be written,
Given birth to, made alive….
But alas!
Poetry failed me-
And life became prosaic.

A FAILURE

One fine morning I woke up to find
My dream had lost its wings!
Twisted and misshapen, it could not fly-
Yet I nurture it with all my strength,
Hoping, some day it might soar high-
Beyond the clouds,
To touch the rainbow…..

I WISH I COULD ESCAPE...

Sometimes I wish I could escape to a world,
Unknown and unexplored, with unfamiliar faces-
With neither smiles, nor frowns,
Nor any form of feeling and emotion-
Blank indifferent faces,
Who will neither greet, nor bid goodbye…
There I wish to discover myself,
And lost in anonymity, recover my faded dreams.

BROKEN DREAM

One sleepless night chases another,
Yet I dare to live every piece of my broken dream.

An inconsolable grief overwhelms me,
Delves deep into my heart and devours my soul,
I grope for the bits of my lost emotions-
And the ashes of my burnt desires fill my stretched palms…….

One tormenting day chases another,
Yet I long to sing every tune of my faded song.

PROUD TO BE A WOMAN

Is it Man’s prerogative to love and woo?
It is Woman’s duty to be coy and obliging?
Is it necessary to conform to such roles?

A woman loves more intensely than a man.
A woman feels more powerfully than a man.
A woman believes more profoundly than a man.
A woman cares more deeply than a man.

Yet her words are choked.
Yet her voice is throttled.
Yet her love is strangled.
Yet her soul is tortured.

A woman has the power to create and un-create love.
A woman has the right to define and re-define her self.
Let us make her see her strength, discover her voice;
Let us make her proud…
Proud to be what she is...
A woman.

ALL PASSIONS SPENT!!

I look forward to those rare moments-
The moments, that make my life…
I look forward to those rare feelings-
The feelings, that feed my soul…

I stretch my hand towards the uncertain-
The uncertain, that seems to be my goal…
I stretch my hand towards the unknown-
The unknown, that seems to be my being…

My soul has been eroded and my passions are spent……
My words have lost meaning and my heart is rent…….

THE FIRST RAINS

The drops of rain touch my face,
They quench my thirst and caress my soul,
I wish I could join them in their revelry,
And lose myself in the dance of merriment…….

A SECOND CHANCE

Life will help you to reach the unreachable
And enable you to attain happiness.
Just close your eyes and submerge your goal
And life comes with all its freshness.

Rediscover the passions you chose to ignore
And let them take you to a higher plane.
Just give your wishes the priority once
And your dreams will not go in vain.

ANGUISH

I wish I could break free and forget
And live life on my own terms
Yet I fail miserably…..

My heart escapes my hands easily
And then I let it break into pieces
Yet I cry inconsolably…..

I try to mend it and take care
And it refuses to listen to me
Yet I strive desperately…..

One should not expect when expectation leads to despair.
One should not presume when presumption leads to distress.

THE SPELL

Is it possible to touch the rainbow
And realize the dream, once lost in the clouds?
Is it possible to crave for solace
And live the entire life in a moment?
I dare not answer the questions……

Is it possible to seize the moment
And lose oneself in the bubbles of happiness?
Is it possible to stop lamenting
And enjoy the gifts life cares to offer?
I dare not break the spell……

Love the life as it may not always reclaim you….
Live the love as it may not always sustain you….

LOOKING FOR ANSWERS

Love comes whispering through the alleys of time,
It touches the heart and fills the hours together.
I wonder if I am drowned in the surges of these emotions,
And lost in confusion, I start presuming, and believing…
I know not if my believing is worth it-
I know not if I am right or so many others are-
I am dazed and puzzled and have a hard time,
As I shred and analyze each and every passing moment.
Or is it right not to try to explain anything?
And just let the feelings take their course?
Unanswered questions come popping up….
And I grope for answers in the hours and minutes and seconds….
Time now and time future overlap and interfere
And the answers prove to be as vague as the questions are….

I CHOOSE NOT TO......

I choose not to fall in love.

It tries and tortures your mind,
It pains your heart and devours your soul,
And leaves you a frail weak creature,
Crawling and gnawing at bits of life.

I choose not to expect love.

It leads you to the edge of despair,
It brings out the treasured tears,
And you are left a destitute,
Grabbing and groping for the ruins of hope.

UNCERTAINTY

A new tomorrow awaits me with new hopes and desires-
I wish to take a leap in time to find myself there…
The hand that I wish to clasp is so far away from me,
Elusive and distant is the face I wish to see!
Will he? Shall I? The questions come rushing……
The answers are unknown and blurred
In the misty alleys of future.

PHOENIX

The night seems longer than the day....
It enfolds me and gives me respite....
All the cares and torments of the day
Recede and leave me in the lap of darkness.
I think……
I think and die a death…
Every night!
Every dark night I die to rise from my ashes….

My soul transforms and I wait eagerly for my death….
Every night!
Every dark night I die to rise from the ashes….
My self is a shadow of the self that had been ….
Before I learnt to die …..
I wait for the night to come
And help me redeem myself and purge my soul.
In the ears of darkness I whisper and forget,
Forgiving those who should not be forgiven.

Yet I choose to think….
And I think to die and once again
Rise and rise and rise from the ashes……

REDEMPTION

I wish I could love myself the way you do yourself
I wish my eyes could be as clear as the eyes of a prophet
I wish I could determine my future raising my finger….


But
I am saved…..


My love saves me from plunging into unknown gorges
My love saves me from losing myself in the strange alleys
You may or may not know it or acknowledge it
It’s you… you sustain and save me
I know not where you are or when you will arrive
But you live in my heart through ages…. And forever will do…!!

INTROSPECTION

The world seems to come to my arms
And suddenly like grains of sand
It crumbles and falls, slipping through my fingers
Why does it happen to me?

Life draws a rainbow in the sky
I stretch my hand to touch the colours
Suddenly it fades and disappears in the light of the day
Why do I fail to realize my dreams?

Love comes whispering to me
My heart flutters and wants to break free
Yet my reason ties my hands and I let it go
Why do I cry when it’s gone?

THE MEETING

It was destined that they should meet and part.
He was not the prince charming,
She was not the princess glorious,
Yet a story could have been told
If …… and only if……….

Thousand words were spoken,
Countless emotions were shared ….
Only to dissipate into nothing.
The story came to an end before it had begun!!